Decided to blog again

A long, long time ago, I used to keep a blog on livejournal. I saw The Social Network this weekend and Mark Zuckerberg was using livejournal and I thought, huh, I wonder if I still have mine. I checked around, and I did. I read through it and laughed at myself. I started it in grade eleven and wrote in it till the start of first year at ABU. I said lots of silly things, had about a million best friends through the run of the blog, and shared an amusingly large amount of my personal life. I probably won't be that personal on this one (seems a little immature re-reading it. I hoped most of it was jokes, but fear it was probably serious).

I've decided to keep this blog, starting today, because in re-reading I enjoyed reliving that part of my life. The part of my life where I worked at Empire and had a hundred close friends, and did all sorts of cool things all the time.

My circle of friends have changed drastically since then. Living in a new city can do that. Growing up can do that. Unsurprisingly though, the truest of my friends stayed with me.

Kelly is living in a different country & I miss her but I know she is always there for me whenever I need her. Corey is in Newfoundland and same thing... he's always the best friend when I need him. and Kyla's in Antigonish and we still get to spend lots of time together.

For those of you NOT in the know (which can't be many of you) - I have a boyfriend! a wonderful boyfriend. His name is Mathew (yes, with ONE t). I really believe God spent my whole life preparing me for him. He is everything I have ever yearned for in a man.

I'm now in my fifth year at ABU, now known as Crandall. I'm a Psychology major and am so confused about what I want to do when I graduate. Sometimes I think I'd love being a sex therapist, but then sometimes I am so drawn to the question "what else could I be?" I hear the professions other have chosen and yearn for that. Except teaching - so shocking, the one thing I always thought I wanted to be, I realized I truly don't want to do.

We had Thanksgiving this weekend at the Collins house because my dad is gone away over Thanksgiving weekend. It was absolutely lovely. Alicha was there and Mrs. Keddy joined us, it was so nice to see our two families becoming one (not that Mrs. Keddy hasn't always been "just like family").

It's shocking how much things change. I'm still reading my old livejournal and am shocked at the things I read, or the relationships I had. People I don't even remember being close to. And people that I do remember being close to and it hurts to realize we're not. That we lost so much.

I need to let it all go. It isn't easy to let it go, but its necessary. I have to move on. And, so, my dear friends. I am telling you now. From this point forward, I have let go of old relationships that I am no longer in and am going to try hard at building the relationships I am in and repairing old friendships that I'm half a foot in. I want to be close to the people that matter.

My depression has affected some friendships I wish it hadn't, but I am coming around the bend now and am starting to see a bright light. I am so hopeful for the new life I can live!! and thankful to the friends that stuck by me!

Okay, I'm going to go work on Geography, but this is the first in, what I hope to be, a long series of blogs!!!!